Full Stop [.] Move On [,] That’s Life [!]

I think it is really time for me to move on, push myself more to achieve something more drastic. I started my very first move for my future by setting up my own freelance, AdrianCJY.com Freelance Web Design and sooner i changed it to AdrianCJY.com Web Design.

Well, I was really proud of my friends who supported me and of course clients who are being very positive to me and of course I learned alot too from being a project manager of 1.com.my.

I did realized today that, everything has a full stop. I think my stage for my first move has come to an end. And I need to get new inspiration to perform better. Yeap, I was very down today when I received the email from my client this morning being denied for a mockup design where she first agreed and complimented a great job done by Adrian. I was on cloud 10 I told my friends on Friday when I was smiling so sweet and it clearly tells me it was outside the GSC Tropicana City Mall. But all these were just ruined within a morning.

She commented on my design which she thought it was no value at all. Isn’t it a bit contradicting from what she told me about on Friday. Why would you want to tell me something nice and push me away with such a hard way. But after all the struggle thinking of it, I actually should direct that question to myself, am I not being design-oriented enough?

Maybe I am. I can tell you words in my email hurts me so much that I need my own room. After reading such a harsh email, I felt helpless and disappointed with myself. What I plan to achieve within the other 3 subsidiaries websites has become my memory instead of a dream. Dream is so fragile that it can just be broken easily.

Or I was too, thinking, I am being too self centered especially on web work. After all, i might not deserve what I have today. I finally realized what my dad used to tell me that, I might think i know a lot of things in the real world, but there are much much more that I have yet to discover .. way way beyond my expectations.

I am hereby posting not to ask your opinions whether I have design values because design values are very subjective. I do not evaluate something called ugly in any sense. This post resembles the full stop of my current stage. I need to be able to deliver more and more dynamic.

Thanks for all those encouraging words today from my friends that I know I need to move on. It’s just the matter of time.