Have you ever think that something wouldn’t have happened to you had you not be doing such things? Have you ever wondered what have you done to someone and made them live in sorrow?
I HAD. And that was the biggest mistake I’ve done. I have great and passionate feelings towards her for quite some long time but I do not have the guts to admit it. Every time when she encounters problems, without hesitation I’ll be her “reference book”, but have she actually thinks what she was doing. I don’t think she did.
Not because she was trying to hurt me but maybe she just didn’t realize my presence or she always thought that I wouldn’t mind being her reference book. But it has come to a point that I told myself “Jun Yew, it’s time to let go everything!!!” but I didn’t stick to my own words; I couldn’t take it as easy as I wanted. She was the one who captivated my life, she was the one who brought me up, but now she suddenly just dropped me down. What can I do?
I was rather dissatisfied with the way I was treated but then I just couldn’t continue my hatrate feelings in myself for long. I tend to be persuaded. Useless, Jun Yew!!!
When you cry, I can be your “tissue” ~ oh gosh!! What a metaphor.
When you are happy, I’ll join you and be part of the joy ~ is that true?
When you are down, I can be a “chair” for you to step on to achieve your goal ~ poor me
When you are depressed, I try to make you rekindle your spirit ~ I manage to do it
When you are not mine, I didn’t force you to be mine ~ I guess I didn’t show my feelings out
When I am down with all these problems, my best friend as in like my brother he backed me up in no matter what situation. ~ Thanks a lot.
When I am struggling finding the answers, again he helped me again ~ Thanks again.
BUT BUT BUT BUT
Have you ever think what I wanted and my feelings. ~ Just as I say maybe she wouldn’t know my presence.
I am not expressing my anger to her, just that my true feelings. Maybe true love is just about struggling after all. I will always be the one.
